Day 39

I am not hungry yet, so I haven't had breakfast. It is probably due to the fact that I overate last night at dinner :)

Yesterday for lunch, I was in a hurry so I quickly made a spinach, almond milk, water, banana, and blueberry smoothie and chugged it down. I don't like eating like that, but sometimes it is unavoidable.

Thursday is usually a really busy day for me and I am still figuring out how to plan ahead. This entire week has been busy with getting caught up from being gone for a week and a half. Due to poor planning, I had dinner out at Qdoba. I realize that this is bad. I had a naked burrito bowl with beans, grilled fajita vegges, pico de gallo, corn salsa, lettuce, and guacamole. According to the nutritional calculator, my burrito was 230 calories and my chips were 290. Just a little over 500 calories, but I still felt REALLY FULL.

Of course I had to have the corn chips. I beat myself up over it until I realized that I am just not ready to give up tortilla chips or coffee for that matter. I also realize that beating myself up only promotes the pattern of self loathing which in turn promotes addiction. So, I gave myself permission to eat a serving of tortilla chips 1-2 times per week and I feel good about it. Are they good for me? Absolutely not, but I am just not ready to give them up. I have also given myself permission to have one cup of coffee per day and I feel okay about that too for now.

By giving myself permission to have these two items, it takes away the power of wanting something I can't have. I have a feeling that as time goes on, I will want these items less.

All in all, I know that I am doing really well. I have given up all grains, all dairy, meat, refined sugars, chocolate, white potatoes, alcohol, salt and oil for the most part. I did have a glass of wine with my dad while I was home (It really didn't even taste good.) I do still eat some oil and added salt like when I eat tortilla chips, but am not adding it to foods that I prepare.

Good news. My g/f has been eating about 90% Eat to Live and a friend/client signed up for the member forums last night. YAY!